Delve Deeper.
On first glance, I'm just another Asian girl with an obsession with Japanese and anime/drama/manga. An anime otaku.
On second glance, the impression's even worse - getting good marks seem to be a big part of my life, and thus, deemed a weirdo.
Third glance - besides the usual few subjects I excel in, I completely fail all others (like geopgrahy). Other subjects I scrape by. On this glance,
people figure out I'm actually not that weird, and I love talking alot.
Fourth glance - people get the picture that I hide alot behind what I actually reveal. They see I'm careful with my words, and never say things
without thinking about it three or four times. They find I'm too polite, and can never see past my exterior.
Fifth...once they've gotten to know me, they know it's just the way I am. I'm careful with my words, but sometimes I let my anger out unexpectedly.
Sometimes I'm flamboyant. Other times I'm as quiet like in the dark of the night. They know I act on impulse; I never act on a schedule.
They found out my harsh words are my way of expressin my concern for them; they find out my silence was for them to have space; they discover I make so many lame jokes
in an attempt to cheer them up; they realise I try getting higher marks to prove myself to the world that an Asian in an English speaking society can still
rise to the top.
I'm not actually that difficult to analyse. I'm just a very different person - the way I act hugely depends on the way I feel.
Sometimes during speeches at school, I can make funny speeches and engage people. Other times I can bore them to death.
Then the next time, I might engage in a speech on a serious issue in our contemporary society. Sometimes I speak with passion.
Other times I speak as if I do not care at all. It's just the way I am.
I like to believe I'm a good person - but on the contrary, I know I'm not one. Sometimes I hold things back to save myself from
further trouble. Sometimes I hide things from my friends that I believe will benefit me more.
But that's "sometimes". Usually I do drop my shell when I see my friends. People that don't "know" me can only see what I
put up for display - it's only close friends that can see I'm actually very different.
But no matter how long this page is - you'll never figure me out until you talk to me. So go ahead and email me =P Hope I didn't
scare you all off with the negatives to my personality XD
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